I don’t know if it is the same for everyone else, but my memories and feelings get jumbled up.
I would be having a flashback whether it is visual or emotional, and i would be trying to challenge the memory. Telling my self, that it was never my fault, i did not deserve all the bad things, i was a child. Then that would lead me to another flashback. This cycle goes on for many hours, usually it happens at night, when everything is quite.
My brain would jump from one memory that happened when i was 15, then it would lead me to one that happened when i was 13. Maybe that is because i denied and never dealt with the things that happened to me. Somedays i do feel like i am being driven mad by my own brain. I felt like i didn’t have anyone to trust and talk to when i was younger, so i kept everything bottled up, and as an adult I’m learning now that is the worst thing i can do to my self.
Every time this happens, i try and calm my self and approach the memories in a rational way, i don’t try and deny the emotions and feelings of the young girl who went through all them things, she has been denied and ignored for long enough. I try and speak to my self, and tell my self what i should have been told when i was a child.